Winter and wheat

me: what do you miss about winter?

nay: (confused) it's still winter- it's january!

me: i know, but it's 80 degrees outside! that is not winter.

nay: it's kind of winter...

i miss winter. i miss the snow on the mountain tops. i miss having a christmas tree in our house. i miss coming home to duke eating some new ornament. i miss hot chocolate and warm cookies. 

i just hate that i cant embrace the new. whats wrong with sunshine and warm afternoons? whats wrong with strolls on the beaches and lovely walks around the block??

i'm just not a fan of change. even if it is good, i dont like it. dont get me wrong, i would be able to adjust to the change of becoming a millionaire, but other things prove more difficult. 

for example: right now i am watching "family matters" and i dont want to change the channel just incase there is nothing better on tv and i just wasted my time channel surfing. but i am watching "family matters". 

sick. 

anyone else remember when it was on TGIF with "step by step" and "full house"??? good days.

anyway, this weekend was nice, and am becoming more and more comfortable with this whole unemployment thing. the sermon this sunday was particularly wonderful and reminded me to be wheat (this may not make any sense to you, but if i explain it will take too long, so just use your imagination) and not weeds. this life is short.

it will end.

it will carry us into something.

and that something depends on how we spend our time here. and whatever side we feed more (the selfish or the loving) will win. i want my loving side to win.

i think it might.