Saturday, January 30, 2010

expanding.

on monday i start my last semester at a community college.

finally!

the more that i have been thinking about it, the more at ease i am becoming with my journey for higher education. at first, i was so disappointed with myself that it has taken me so long to finish. friends that are younger than me have their degrees, and i was getting really down on myself for taking such a long time.

but now, things are different. i wouldnt change my life for anything in the world. the marriage that i have is because i took so much time away from school and actually worked on my marriage. we grew together and learned how to be married (and still learning) and i would much rather have a good marriage than a degree any day of the week.

so, this next semester will be a crazy one, but will also be one filled with joy and accomplishment. i will finally be outta there! (insert the end of Aladdin here)

also, work has been such a huge blessing. friends of mine have informed me that i tend to give up on things when they get hard (not big things, mostly just little things) and i almost gave up on my job working with special needs kids because of just how grueling it is. but, i have stuck it out and have really been learning volumes about me, and my character, and the beauty of people. i am finding that my heart is expanding, and i am learning to love in a way that i never knew possible, seeing past the stigmas and the burdens that come with loving another human being.

i dont know if this makes sense, but it all is fitting together like puzzle pieces in my mind. i feel like i am getting glimpses of what i was designed to do, and that feeling is making me fall more in love with my God.

2 comments:

January Mamma said...

Changes, changes. You are handling them all so well; with so much patience and self-awareness. As old as it makes me sound, I am so proud of you. :) (insert cheek pinch here). You are truly loving through actions, especially at your job; so many opportunities. Keep up the good fight!

Ricky said...

You could just tell people you have your PhD in Marriage. :-)

You guys give me a lot to look up to and learn from. Thank you so much.

And i'm SUPER stoked for you finishing school. That's rad. No matter the time frame, you're doin it. At least you won't have like 4 years at a community college just for an Associates. (me when i finish)