today kicked my butt.
like a school girl crush trampled by the reality of a love that will never come.
today knocked the air out of my already tired lungs and i lay here in bed just wishing for sleep.
today has made me grateful for the flawless sunny days where my couch engulfs me and surrounds me with silly dreams. thankful for the brief moments of laughter nathan and i shared today watching the westminster dog show.
although today was bad, it wasnt awful.
a storm is brewing and the way i approach it will change everything.
everything.
everything.
i cant get over it. that word gives me chills.
this is not impossible. it is not a situation that will shake my foundation and crumble my spirits.
but they are bruised. they are black and blue with blows that life gives out when you least expect it. and each blow comes without grace or mercy. they come over, and over, and over, and over.
unfortunately, nay had this kind of day today too. we were a bunch of sad saps who just looked at each other hoping this day would end sooner.
but tomorrow has a promise and hope that i have taken for granted. i love how the terrible, no good days make us realize what a blessing those mundane days really are.
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